My biggest fear is not that you will not return my love. My biggest fear is that you will. What would I do if you actually reciprocated what I feel for you? Would I run? Too afraid of letting you to give it a go? That’s my history, my method of operation. Everything that I’ve done in the past is push people away before they can hurt me. Would you fight for me? Would you push through my fears and say “no. I love you and I won’t let you go”. Not likely. As you said from the beginning “if I find someone else its all good. If you find someone else its all good”. But that was 6 months ago. Neither you nor I are the same person. I just pray i stick around long enough to find out.
I’m falling for him. Big time. It feels like my heart is being dragged down to the depths of the sea. And I’m doing nothing to stop it.
Maybe it’s just something girls tell themselves when they’re with a guy who won’t commit.
I don’t need the world to know that we belong to each other. He proves it to me when its just him and I. When we’re together in his car and he holds my hand or when he puts on those songs that get me every time. That’s what really matters: he shows his true self when we’re together
Like I said: maybe I just say that because he won’t commit.